Two Week Absence

Starting sometime tomorrow, i will be away from computers for two weeks; that is, if i get everything sewn tomorrow that needs done. The huge skirt took a lot out of me.


Between breaks of sewing, i did manage to complete the pirate hunt and part of the MND2 hunt, and still have a bit of Linden left over. i may buy an outfit or some more hair - i haven't decided yet.

Busy Busy

For the past week, i've been very buys in both my First Life and in Second Life.


There are a few things i need to sew for an event i'm going to starting Saturday, however it seems all of the sewing machines in the house are broken; there's one last one that can be tried, but if that doesn't work...hand sewing is going to suck with my physical issues. The only other option is to overnight them to my offline Protector, and have Her make everything...but i would need to fake two days of costumes at least, since she won't be there till Tuesday.


In world, i'm doing several hunts - the Three Moons hunt with Aime, then the Midsummer Night's Dream and Pirate hunts, since MND and the pirate one seem to be at the same stores, just in different orders. Those need done before the 30th...we'll see how far i get.


Away from Second Life, but still online, there's a raid tonight in the MMO W/we play together. That will likely suck up most of my evening...

A First Life Moment

There is a very powerful, very beautiful thunderstorm in progress, that i woke up to today. Unfortunately, rain and humidity make my medical conditions worse, so i'm feeling rather horrible at the moment. i have yet another doctor's appointment, with yet another new doctor, but so far i've only ever had one idiot of a specialist; think i'm approaching having fifteen doctors or psychological specialists, most of which are physical ailment doctors.


i'm very tempted to wear my "i'm a fragile fucking flower" shirt today...

Becoming Aurum

She gave me a name, and now i am aurum.


This is why She has been buying me things, giving me a make over, making me Hers. First it was the skin from Unique. Then the hair from Sirena. The tribal belly dancer outfit. Now the mermaid costume for when W/we're in the mood to be playful. She even bought me pretty lingerie from Insolence. And of course, there is always the collar.


Everything becomes fitted for my tiny form. She calls me little one, because of how petite i am beside Her, or Her girl. When W/we go shopping, She always has me pick things, but ultimately She decides how i shall look for Her. It's fun, mostly relaxing unless we get a bugged piece, which W/we actually ran into for the first time today.


The mermaid costume She bought me was from TempT, the pretty Mydnight Mermaid that has exquisitely sculpted fins. Unfortunately, the majority of the tail fins are not properly visible in the new Phoenix Firestorm viewer, which is weird because it shows up in the Viewer 2 by Linden Labs. The creator is being awesome, and i will be playing with the settings to see if it will show up properly; if not, i can trade it in for a different one.


While W/we waited on our group to form for a dungeon, i wore the lingerie She bought me and danced for Her, as she lounged in a chair. There's a few pictures from it in the gallery now, along with a few from an abandoned church in an RP sim.


i sort of want to do BDSM/erotic modeling in Second Life. It will likely take months to get up all the poses/anims, alternate make up for the skin I use, and clothing...

Shopping Trip

Today, I met Lady Aime's mate, Sir Omar Pardus.

First, She took me shopping, and bought me a lovely red Tribal Fushion costume from Wishbox. She also got me a very lovely, motion captured belly dance HUD; the motions are very fluid and realistic, given that i belly dance in my First Life...when my medical conditions don't interfere with it.

Later, Sir Omar was looking for new clothing, so W/we ran all over the grid trying to find something. i will be looking at more places for Him, since male fashion is so hard to find. He prefers the Gothic/Vampire/Victorian look, so if anyone knows of good places for that, feel free to links them in the comments!

Then She took me shopping for new hair. After much looking, W/we found something that She felt was the best, moving me one step closer to being Hers completely.

i am very happy!

The Collaring

Last night, i received my collar from Lady Aime. We travel together in other virtual spaces, but take refuge from all kinds of bullshit and drama by spending time together in Second Life.

i have been drifting around Second Life for ages, though recently i shed most of my other personas for this one; i still revisit a couple others, to see friends, but for the more part, i have narrowed down what i am doing in SL.

For a while, i was a frequent visitor to the Dominion Femdom. While i felt safe there, and enjoyed speaking with the Ladies and their submissives, and learning more about the s side of a D/s relationship; up until last year, i was only and always the D of that equation. At first, i was there to learn how to be a better submissive for my First Life lover, since She was the first person I could submit to.

She wasn't a very good person, though. i was extremely submissive to Her, and She could exert dominance fairly easy, at least with myself on that side of the /, but She wasn't willing to really take the responsibility that came from it; She didn't even think about the fact i would sub-drop the first time after submission, and only dealt with it after the fact. She completely disregarded the fact that the way she ended things would put me into a harder, longer sub-drop; She then refused to acknowledge that it was the larger part of the problem i was having afterward.

Really, She likely still doesn't get that part of it.

This made me almost back out of the BDSM lifestyle entirely. A First Life friend convinced me not to, and requested that i take a protection collar from her there to break the connection between my ex-lover, and give me a shield when i was finally capable of going back to the places where i had a huge chance of running into Her.

However, online, in Second Life and in MMOs, i still felt very vulnerable. Part of me was longing to be someone's submissive, but the better part of me knew that it was too soon; i still wanted to be protected though, so i built in numerous detriments to aspiring courtiers when i made my characters. Months later, Lady Aime and i had spent a lot of time together in a particular MMO, and knew each other from before.

When i returned to Second Life this time, Lady Aime - whom was already drawn to me and protective - became even more so when She saw my expression of self here. When She offered me a collar, i felt that it was the right moment to try again. She took me to a few different stores to look through collars, and we both agreed that the Etched collar by Sensations was the perfect fit.

Already, i feel a little better about the BDSM lifestyle again, and i feel safe both online and offline now. i am very happy that Lady Aime decided she wanted to keep me. *smiles*